A short update

Greetings!

Things certainly are different now. The initial thrill of having the liberty to walk around in the hospital wards totally unsupervised, flipping open charts randomly and interrogating patients has started to wane. I'm starting to feel less like a student, and more as a working staff now. Of course, I'd be fitted right at the bottommost slot of the hospital hierarchy, together with other hospital staff such as the janitors, cleaners etc.

Bustling around from 8am to 5pm, sometimes till 7pm, is enough to sap out any little energy left. Most days, I come home from the hospital feeling happy and contented with the day's work. But there's one or two occasions of which I left the hospital feeling utterly horrible. Those times, I realized all it took was a nice warm hug, or even a friendly smile, that made the day bearable.

I'll admit, being busy does help a little in distracting me from certain thoughts and emotions I had. But lately I'm starting to find this wall of resistance slowly crumbling again. And there are times I find myself staring off into space with those thoughts swirling around in my mind, wishing that I'm somewhere far off. I call it Relapse.

Don't get me wrong. I'm happy, as always. But I guess I could be happier.

Always.

=)

Current Mood : Ireland =)